Oh...and I write poetry too...

http://www.booksie.com/gay_and_lesbian/poetry/allegrotk/heart-or-mind-confused/chapter/1 

Feeling Like R. Kelly

Trapped in the closet that is...So get this, I'm a 17 soon to be 18 year old girl. I guess I would classify myself as bisexual but...that title doesn't concern me. The only thing that matters is my girlfriend. My first girlfriend that I feel so in love with. And it's not like I don't want to tell my parents because I know they'll accept me...but her parents aren't okay with it. Which means we have to pile lie on top of lie just to see each other. We don't tell our friends because some of them have big mouths. Sigh...I wish things were a little easier but hey...all we have to do is wait until we're both out of college. And then it's the home stretch :) Life with her seems like a fantasy but...at the same time it seems completely possible. I can't wait.

Your Place....or Mine?

So...had a dentist appointment today...yech, the whole process grosses me out but I DO like having all of my teeth. It's interesting sitting in chair while a woman I've known for five minutes gropes around my mouth, fingers reaching places I don't want fingers to reach O_o...I mean, it's my mouth. I suppose there are more personal areas on the body a person could touch but I couldn't shake the feeling that she got to know some people a little too well. I couldn't help but wonder if she could see the slightest hint of a smirk playing across my face as random, comical thoughts crossed my mind. I thought it would have been hilarious to ask her for her number...now that we'd gotten to know each other so well. As I sat in the chair I recalled past experiences in similar offices, a dentist with his hand half way down my throat asking me questions like"So where do you go to school?" and me, attempting to articulate without the proper use of my tongue and lips, answering with "Ah go do Oot Ill Iddle Cool" (Translation Foot Hill Middle School) The dentist nodded saying "Oh yea!!! I know that school!" I wonder now why he insisted on starting a conversation when communication was obviously hindered.

Noob

As I attempt to figure out what it is I want to do with my life...I think about all the things I'd done right...and All the things I'd done wrong...Yes, this two way street called life... on the corner of Reality and Fantasy...I...am getting my ass kicked. I suppose I've seen this coming for a while now...but with it happening in the present, NOTHING has prepared me for these moments. Life...and Love...there are no books of How-To on those topics...Okay...tomorrow...as cliche as this is....is the first day of the rest of my life...and I could use all the help I can get...